Sometimes the sadness and emptiness we feel and think is exactly what we need. We aren't computers after all programmed to perform the same tasks over and over. It's a relatable position though that seems to be persistent nowadays.

Maybe it's just a phase or a search for a cure where there is none. We control our inside, but not the outside. Perhaps we look to the outside to fulfill the inside when we ought to measure our mind and reasoning for what and why we are. As for you writing this, the solution is probably closer than you think. You are processing the present comparing it to the past and now perceiving the future.

But, like the old saying goes, time will tell.

I wish you well on this journey of life.

So relatable! :)
Trying to find the balance between day-to-day responsibilities and your own well-being is a challenge, and it doesn’t help when you start to lose interest in the things you enjoy and your brain is being unkind. I hope you find the motivation to push through it and find joy in the little things, even if your life isn’t how you imagined. Proud of you for making it this far